I think one of the parts of The Bell Jar that stood out to me the most was Esther's view on life, and the role it plays in why she eventually attempts suicide. One of the main things that Esther struggles with is the question of what her future is, and if the one she's on track to is what she really wants. The uncertainity of who she wants to be, paired with the question of whether or not that's possible for her, haunts her. When Esther is faced with the path that she worries is currently laid out for her, one of being married to Buddy and having his kids, it only furthers her spiral. Seeing the woman give birth, and her realization that one day it will have to be her being tortued on that table, being forced to forget it, all so she can repeat that same process eliminates a possible future for her. On page 79, Esther compares her life to a fig tree, with each fig representing a different life that she could lead, until, "I wanted each ...